I woke up this morning and started crying over lost love. What? Come again? But it's true. Eight-thirty A.M. found me quietly sobbing, just a couple repressed sobs and then I sucked in a deep breath and sat down to write about compost. I went out into the backyard yesterday to check on my compost piles—I have three different piles—and I was pleased to see that they'd shrunk, though "shrunk" is the wrong word. Time and rain and gravity and snow have compacted them, have aided the process of their decomposition. Compost matures as it shrinks. It was late January, and as I stood there inspecting my piles, I was thinking about the future, how we really don't know what our futures hold, but even so we can be sure that our compost will ripen. When nothing appears to be happening, something is still happening. I went around front to have a look at my garden. In August it looked like this...
but now it looks like this...
But "this" isn't such a terrible thing. There is some beauty and hope in this. And I do not mean that the weather has been mild and beautiful—that is actually somewhat disturbing—I mean that beauty is always happening, even when the opposite appears to be true. All winter I have been thinking about this Wallace Stevens poem, The Snow Man.
And that seems like a suitable place to end this post about the winter.One must have a mind of winterTo regard the frost and the boughsOf the pine-trees crusted with snow;And have been cold a long timeTo behold the junipers shagged with ice,The spruces rough in the distant glitterOf the January sun; and not to thinkOf any misery in the sound of the wind,In the sound of a few leaves,Which is the sound of the landFull of the same windThat is blowing in the same bare placeFor the listener, who listens in the snow,And, nothing himself, beholdsNothing that is not there and the nothing that is.
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Winter isn't such a long time.
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